Open Question: christian,what is going on with me?
I am a christian.I suffer from anxiety disorder,insomnia and mild depression and I have been seeing doctor for almost a year.Recently I fail my major exam due to anxiety problem and this is the second time I fail.I couldnt get into a good public school.most of the people around me do well in their exam and could get into a good public school.I just dont understand that I study so much yet I fail.I hate it alot.I feel that life is unfair.My jealousy on them is getting stronger.I just simply hope that they will fail their exam and suffer just like me.I couldnt stand people living a better life than me..I have certain confusion on whether God exists.sometime I feel that God exists and sometime I feel that God doesnt exists.