Open Question: what to do when youve exhausted all pathways for beating depression?

im 24 i would say ive had major depression and social anxiety for a good few years been on and off loads of antidepressents which make me even more withdrawen than i already am... tired and feel more depressed? ive been to see a phycologist,,,,she refered me to cbt therapy which didnt help very much eather. Ive tried to put on a brave face with no help at all but struggle day to day and im never ever just happy even though theres nothing to be really unhappy about in my life at this moment. Ive got really skinny as im not eating like i should and never hungry..constantly tired all the time, sense of humour has gone, im very with drawen and dont feel like taking much and i force myself to be happy person and chatty that everyone will like. I dont like to talk about my illness as i like to deal with most things myself. i cant hold down a relationship as im too messed up in the head at the moment and job wise i find it hard to concentrate. Sometimes i feel like checking myself away to a hospital but i no im not that bad and theres worse off than me. well i suppose im on here for a bit of hope and want to hear peoples storys if youve been through the same and came out the other end and saw the light? how did you get there ? thanks cbt therapy its about retraining your thought paterns as in with anxiety so you dont panic and learn what triggers it

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