Open Question: whats the best way for me to respond?
to a person who says ' your trying to be someone your not ' ? im 31 had a harsh life up to now with a lot of misfortunes, i have struggle with low self esteem, struggled with asserting myself , putting myself across without becoming angry or feeling intimidated. i was a sensitive person and let victimisers bully me because i felt to shy , sensitive or intimidated to , i would run off or snap aggressively or cower down. today i have made plenty of progress, progress with my self esteem, and with assertive skills, developed better strength of character etc - but still have a long way to go. i have various personality disorders , but im chasing seperate assesments for :ptsd , ocd and GAD because i feel i have anxiety disorders undiagnosed. theres times i still fail a lot at being assertive , or my mind goes blank , cant think of a response to a situation - have aggressive outbursts , struggle to know how to ' react ' - feel intimidated and afraid to assert. i feel very angry and frustrated that i cant do this, cant assert or put myself across at times , doubting myself , unsure of myself , vulnerable , i put myself under high expectations. i have even been in situations with clenched teeth, and ive had to leave the room, before i had an angry outburst , because the situation got the better of me. ive even been in situations where a person says ' your trying to be something your not ' - and ive nearly lost control of an aner outburst , unsure of how to respond.. how can i react better to situations like this in the future ? how do you get fully confident, sure of yourself, develop full strength of character and a 100 % assertive at most times ? i feel angry that i cant face up to situations at times, feel intimidated or unsure of how to respond...or mind goes blank.